What is a blonde's mating call?
"I'm sooooo drunk!"

What is the brunette's mating call?
"Have the blondes left yet?"

This is sooo retarded. Why do people enjoy stereotypes! being a blonde or a brunette has nothing to do with personality. Obviously society enjoys people with blonde hair so OF COURSE the girl with the blonde hair will enjoy attention more than the brunette. I fucking HATE those who only date people as long as they have their preference of hair or eye color. I wanted so bad to punch the shit out of some of the guys who ignored me once they found girls with a more interesting eye or hair color.

REALLY? is that ALL it takes for people to lose interest in someone they get along with? a fucking different shade? *stab stabs idiot shallow idiots* I'm glad my hair is purple that gives people time to think about me,,,instead of just assuming i'm smart, prudish...or whatever the dumb fucking stereotypes for brunettes are.

*clings to desk for dear life* I DONT WANNA GOOOO NO FUKING NOOOO!

*sobs* someone give me a prayer...or a cheatsheet dammit.

TODAYS MY BDAY!

I got the twilight book :D shush i love romance

i got an electronic dictionary

A caligula dvd box set!

GODIVA CHOCOLATES! YUUM!

clothes for school

and that's it! i'm so happy! i didn't get EVERYTHING i wanted but that's ok. Christmas is REALLY soon and i save up my money so i have 55$ to buy whatever box set i want. plus my bros giving me money! so that'll be 105 at the end of the day! my friends are giving me stuff too i think...

I fucking forgot my birthday...just yesterday i realized "huh...my birthdays at the end of the week" i have ALWAYS counted down to my bday starting from at LEAST 30 days before....i have never not thought about it until the last week...it's weird. My mom asked me for a bday list a week ago so i go my present ideas in!

i can't remember some but what i want most is avatar season 2 and a electronic dictionary!

<3 how old are you all turning this year?

I know this is kinda lame but i thought it looked pretty when i messed with the colors in my pic. Sigh...i really should get a hobby.

Every year it is a tradition for my mom to say "now it's time for the youngest to say a prayer" she looks at me and demands for me to say a prayer and everytime i say no. The first time i said it was because i was shy...i was about 3...and i also couldn't remember the prayer i learned in church that my mom wanted me to say so i refused to say anything and insisted my older cousin could much better give a prayer...after that i always passed the job on to him.

My cousins not here for thanksgiving anymore..he moved. Now i say no because i'm not sure if there's a god or not...that and because im shy still i can't think on the spot. I don't think it's right for someone who isn't sure if there is a god or not to be praying, i can't explain properly why it didn't feel right...it just didn't. So my mom threatened "we won't eat until you say something" this year she was especially insistent...i shrugged and looked at my starving dad and said that was HIS problem...i'm never that hungry during thanksgiving for some reason...i guess nothing on the table really appetizes me.

It's not like i'm spoiled enough not to give thanks. I'm thankful all the time...sometimes i look around and think "i really don't deserve this...i'm so lucky" it bothers me that people are only expressing their thanks once a year and force it as well just to get to the food. Thanksgiving means nothing to me...i especially don't see it as a relgious holiday so WHY my mom puts pressure on me to pray every year i'll never know...i remember once expressing clear to my mom my views on religion...i guess she wasn't listening. If she was she wouldn't force me to pray.

In the end my dad gave in and said the prayer lol. It was funny because he was like "let us bless this food" then my mom cut him off "No GOD blesses the food" "do you want me to say the prayer or NOT?"

and well it continued on from there lol. It was an ok thanksgiving it passed in a daze...like i said i don't care...and every year it matters less.

NOTE: my dads not relgious...he's like me...agnostic...he just wanted food...and has no morals when it comes to saying prayers even if he doesn't mean them.

So i've been in a comic class at a college making my own comic and learning all about how to do certain techniques! i can gladly say that my teacher said my work looked professional and i did a great job! i'm so happy! so here is the cover page and first page of my comic called "Mannequin"! the rest is in my art thread!

http://www.newgrounds.com/bbs/topic/95 3365/3

I like messing with timid people! i shouldn't do this because this guy likes me...but his reaction was WORTH it. I pointed at him, smiled, and winked his face was priceless. He turned his eyes to the side and fidgeted looking VERY awkward and uncomfortable.

I screamed "i have made you uncomfortable! my goal is complete" i can't help it he's so weird it's fun to tease him. Before i knew he liked me i chased him around screaming "why are you keeping me at an emotional distance? LOVE ME LOOOOVE ME!" i chased him around the hallways it was fun...until he confessed to me...stupid boys and their emotions ruin my fun...now if i run around screaming i love him he'll take it seriously...fuck.

Well i didn't like treat him unkindly...he kinda hinted it to me...as well as mouthed it to me in class...and i just pretended to ignore it and play dumb. Which is better for me because he treats the girls that reject him like shit...and the last thing i need is to go to court for beating him senseless.
Guys are pretty hard to interpret...i don't know why they think they aren't he treats me like crap sometimes...other times like a princess....pretty hard to read if you ask me.

This is me as a kid! ain't i a cute little shit?

Hands on keyboard pedos!

I'm going to dye my hair lavender...just the front and some streaks. Whiich will actually look pretty cool with my complexion! ^^ it's kinda crazy how many people are dying their hair a shit load of girls in my school dyed their hair either red of pink..my old colors..bleugh i don't want to look like them! pretty lavender for me! i'll post a pic once i get it done...but that won't be for a little while.

Btw..i got avatar season 1 on dvd! i'm so happy! i originally went to the store to get death note it came out today and now it's sold out! argh wtf! i want my death noooote!

I remember thinking at some point how people act differently when they are around other people. I got to thinking about how i act differently at home compared to when i'm act school. I realized when i'm at school even though i'm always happy, some days i really dont feel like it but i still feel obligated to crack a smile just to let people know i'm ok. Sometimes though.... i can't ALWAYS force it.

When i'm home...i'm open and carefree with my dad but however it's toned down...i'm more bitter and the jokes i make aren't like the ones in school, they are sarcastic and cold, at school my jokes are downright corny and stupid. Either way i still make someone smile....it's just odd how i do it in such different ways. However..when i mix what i find funny in school to what i find funny at home...it doesn't always work...sometimes i get looked at like a freak...that just makes me silent. My family is more serious than joking.

it could be the MAIN reason why i'm almost always smileless at home is my mom. I was reading a manga today...lol i know but hear me out...a character said "why are you forcing a smile?" and i just had a total flashback...i remember as a kid if i would laugh for too long my mom would say "stop forcing your laugh" but i WASN'T i mean..maybe there was an occasion or so...but she had to have said that to me enough for it to stick in my memories....also my dad as well. He frowns so much he has permanent frown lines..NO JOKE..so how many laughs do you think he would have if i made a corny joke as a kid to him? jeeze...yeh..i remember him yelling a lot and grumbling...he's nicer now though. Oh well i'm done with my stroll down memory lane. I should go back to therapy.

In all honesty. I am only truly happiest by myself...i can be however i like to be and no one can judge but me!

Oh and i hope no one thinks i'm a emo....lol...i did have cousins who let me be me. I didn't have a bad life...but i don't have the perfect parents either..no one does. But i can say they did a pretty good job..i'm not a crackwhore at least lol.

I'm doing suprisingly well. I always get B's or one accidental C. Yet every term i'm freaking out about it. I don't think i'll be too sane at the end of the year. Which is fine as long as i don't get lower than a 80 average. I'd like higher...but my college i want to be in demands a 80 average or above so i'm just focusing on that and trying not to go under. Blah...wish me luck...or don't if you aren't a nice person :D

I know i'm posting a lot..but there's no one really to talk to but myself. My friends only talk about school, my parents only talk to me about school...eh..oh wait i'm talking about school now. fucking great. I guess i really don't have any other things to talk about, i knew IT...i AM more boring than usual...well shit...

oh...YA...i'm going to europe in July. The plan is Italy, france, london...or perhaps some other order whatever. I'm excited! chocolate chocoooolates. If anyone has any suggestions about where i should go other than hell let me know :D i can't wait to show europeans what a cheeseburger is. J/k...ya i am a douche sorry.

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