Doesn't anybody have any respect for themselves? I'm not like fearful and angry when people get naked it's not like it's a BIG deal. But like there's a difference between getting naked for two maybe 5 people,and millions. I saw this clip where this girl was pumping gas and a guy went up to her and said "would you strip for 50$ "

she said "no"

then he asked "400$ ?"

she DID it in the middle of a fucking gas station by a highway. Is that how much your dignity is worth bitch? 400$!! i wouldn't do that for any money.
1) because i wouldn't believe anyone would pay that much to see me naked.

2) how do i even know I'd get the money WTF!

I love art museums it was so beautiful. I saw pieces that I never thought i would see.There were a lot of picassos and Kadinskys.Vangogh was beautfiul too. This piece was one of my favorites.It doesn't look as good on a comp as it does when it's infront of you.But i loved it. It made me feel a vibe of i dunno...love? and happiness.

A lot is going on in the picture but i felt so calmed by it. Surrealism and modern art are really my most favorite types of art. I like how artists put their dreams in to art. My next dream...whatever it is will be painted :D I hope it will be a weird one. If any of you are in NYC go to a museum! anyway here's the song for the week.

Offended everyway by The White Stripes.

I'm patient of this plan
as humble as I can
I'll wait another day
before I turn away
but know this much is true
no matter what I do
offend in every way
I don't know what to say

You tell me to relax
and listen to these facts
that everyone's my friend
and will be till the end
but know this much is true
no matter what I do
no matter what I say
offend in every way

there's a flash that plays this song....I don't remember the name but it's by JohnnyUtah who is incredible with flash.

i don't have a boyfriend..never really did never got kissed.I'm almost 16.Ok? got that out of the way I'm a loser and everyone knows it. My moms hinting at me to start dating...and she's not being polite about it. Here's a conversation at dinner with my tutor who before you ask is my parents friend.

Tutor: do you mind if i skip next weeks tutoring? i have to be somewhere but i can do it on Saturday

Mom: oh that's fine she doesn't have any dates or anything to do on the weekends anyway.

Me: *stabs chicken with knife and fork...poor chicken*

Then...

Mom: oh there's this cute boy you should meet it's too bad he's too old for you..

Me: why's that too bad?

Mom: So you could date him!

Me: hahah....ok sure.

So my moms hinting,and i don't really know what to do.I get asked out but they're the most uninteresting people in the world,they don't ask my name or go in to conversation with me to see if I'm worth their time it's just "HEY SEXY! you see my friend there? he likes you!" me: *thumbs up*
or usually it's just "Hey beautiful lemme talk to you" "gimme your number" blah blah blah.

The worst thing is that the guys i DO like either stop liking me because of someone else ,or they just get bored.Everytime i give up i get asked out. Just by the wrong people. I just want one normal person who fits my standards.This whole boyfriend less thing is just gonna get worse as i get older and people are gonna keep thinking me weirder...I'm tired of being told "you'll find someone" ya ok tell me that again when i'm 30.

well i'm done bitching...here's the song for the week.

The Killers-Bones

(Come with me)
We took a back road, we're gonna look at the stars
We took a back road in my car
Down to the ocean, it's only water and sand
And in the ocean, we'll hold hands
But I don't really like you, apologetically dressed
In the best put on the heartbeat line
Without an answer, the thunder speaks from the sky
And on the cold, wet dirt I cry
And on the cold, wet dirt I cry

Don't you wanna come with me?
Don't you wanna feel my bones on your bones?
It's only natural

I decided to change it from song of the month to song of the week! anyway just this once I'll give you guys two! everyone should hear these songs they are my favorites! listen to it when you have the chance! or IM me and I'll send it to ya!
Givemeyourcoffee@hotmail.com

These aren't the full lyrics just parts.

Coming Undone by Korn

Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Please strike
Be deliberate

[Chorus]
Wait
I'm coming undone
Irate
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
One looks so strong
So delicate

Gnarls Barkley- Necromancing

Uh huh, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
It's naughty, very naughty necrophilia
Without a care I'm compassionate about killing her
I'd have my way with what's left of the will in her
Cosmopolitans, and cocaine, and an occasional pill in her
When she spoke I saw a spark, but it was dark so
I drove her home when she died, sexy suicide
Sweet nothings for the numb, you feel where I'm coming from?
Have no fear, everything's fine, my girl parties all the time
Did you hear what I said? With this ring I thee wed
A body in my bed, she was cool when I met her
But I think I like her better dead

I know my music seems kinda emo/creepy lol but don't worry it'll get more happier and weird i promise....you'll believe me when i post the macarena !!!
Now applaud my awesomeness......yes that's right follow Snape and no one gets e-hurt.

Well he's more or less a friend I've known him for a little while. Anyway he asked me in a cute way.You know those folding origami fortune tellers? he made one and asked me to pick one.

I opened it and it said "wanna go out with me?" so i swatted it away and said no.

I really didn't care about his feelings.The way i see it whether i was nice about it or not he was still gonna be offeded. I also found him annoying because i'm in summer school and he kept bugging me to talk to him and I really needed to do work. He got quiet after that.

He told me earlier though that someone had a crush on me and said "wanna know who?" I told him no.

I didn't CARE who liked me because there was no one in that class I was even REMOTELY in to. I figured he was just talking about his friend since i heard him say he had a girlfriend. He's not my type for a few reasons. But mainly i'm annoyed because he thinks that class is just time to socialize and talk. I'm not fucking putting up with that. I need to do my work and he needs to back off. he knows I don't want to talk and i've told him twice to stop.

BTW i do respect that he asked me to my face.It takes a lot of guts to do that. i'm just angry that he wants me to talk when I'm trying to pass.

This is just beautiful NG looks way better.So let me say that this is my blog which i intend to bore you with all my events that happen in my everyday life as if you actually care.So today i brushed my teeth, then I went to summer school,came home,waited for Ng to come back online,then started typing online. HOPE YOU ALL LOVED MY FANTASTICAL DAY! NEXT TIME I'LL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT MY DEPRESSIONS AND WHY I NEED A HUG!