When i become a parent here's what i'll never do that my parents have done to me.

Son/Daughter i promise to never...

Wake you up screaming about anything unless im dying or about to.

make you feel stupid for laughing out loud

force you to feel guilty about your style

not listen

help you when you feel you need it

ignore when youre feeling depressed or tired and arent in the mood to talk

call you a brat or something that makes you feel less than who you are

giving you everything you want then calling you a brat

beat you (my dad did this once...i'm not being abused regularly)

calling you fat or making you feel bad when you're eating

comparing you to siblings or relatives or anyone else

calling your dreams stupid or insulting them

making comment on your lack of boyfriend or not having a lot of friends

yeh my life isn't as bad as compared to some...shit my cousins have it waaay worse. But...still everyone has their own personal hell, you have no idea what living with my family is like. It's torture but it's subtle, your family makes you feel great for awhile, then they treat you like shit, then back to good, it's on and off, but i always feel like they love me...but not like me...for me, i hope that makes sense.

Does your family like to attack you on just about EVERYTHING? my sister and my mom have intense feelings of self loathing so everything they hate about themselves they have to attack me on. My mom hates her hair, so when i want to straighten it she goes "you're ashamed to be black" nooo...i'm ashamed to have thick curly fuckin hair. She's a hypocrite she straightens her hair!!! sometimes i think she's jealous because she hair is so short and mine is thick curls courtesy of my italian side.

Both my mom and sister tell me i weigh too much and snap at me when i'm enjoying some ice cream. They both eat WAAAY less healthier than i do. Fact of the matter is i've managed to stay the SAME weight for the past three years, the only reason i may have a little extra fat is because i don't work out. But i never drink soda, except diet coke, or anything that has over 200 calories and can't fill me up for at least 4 hours.

My sister eats UNBELIEVABLE amounts of portions which is why she gains weight, she snacks so much she has about 3 meals and 2 little ones in a DAY. My mom is the same, she doesn't watch the calories and she doesn't watch the portion sizes. So when i eat ice cream they have no right to tell me "AH YOU PIG!" when in fact i only ate two small but filling meals in the day so by the time i eat the ice cream it would barely have an effect on my weight. I called my sister out on her hypocrisy and she said "it's too late for me but you can still lose weight" WTF SHES NOT 50! SHES ONLY 28!! agh i hate women.....such bitches with eachother.

doggy is embarassed for you.

Ouuu yaaaa corn you like that?

Women have a lot of trouble taking things as they are. I'm proud to say i was mostly raised by males so i can take the heat. But above all else it's not about male/female it's about being polite. Guys don't like to be told insensitive things so women need to watch their mouths as much as guys do.

Weight

We all know most girls get VERY touchy on their weight, i'm the same, i don't mind being told "hey you're gaining a little weight" from my dad or bf. I'll just be all "sigh yeh i know" honestly i fucking it hate it when guys try to go "oh..you're eating more ice cream..you think THAT'S going to make you lose weight" that seriously makes me snap.

I don't see why guys should have ANY reason to be obnoxious to girls about their weight, how would you like it if i came to the gym while you were working out and said "oh...that's not many muscles you have there can't them bigger? hm..."

Outfit

Never say her clothes look cheap, guys you don't like someone telling you your clothes look like you got them on discount if you are TRYING to look nice. Personally i LOVE cheap clothes, 12$ shirts FTW! but i like them because people think they cost WAY more.

I don't want someone to say "nice shirt looks like you didn't even try to spend a lot of money" that's totally obnoxious. But if someone says i have a nice outfit even though it costs 10 dollars in total i'll go "THANKS BUT YOU KNOW I GOT ALL THIS FOR UNDER 20$!!!!" i'm proud of my bargain prices lol.

I FOUND IT!

I'M YOUR FRIEND DO AS I SAAY

I can't believe i was so obvious...so some of you may or may not know..i had a crush on a guy a while back...he was nice and funny, but as time went on he started getting dickish..and blaming me for things. I had a lot of patience with him but when he said to his friend that he had sex with me, that made me tell him to fuck off and i refused to talk with him again even though he tried to talk to me, i don't like being used, i'm just so suprised when classmates asked me over, and over, if we liked eachother because we sat next to eachother all the time, i didn't realize we were together THAT often.

This is the first time any guy has ever done anything so disgusting to me, to go as far as to tell someone he had sex with me...ugh...i just miss him as a friend, but he wasn't much of a friend either, self centered, rude, ignoring, i'm not entirely sure WHAT i miss lol. I just know being his friend hurts too much.

Corn sex is outlawed in 49 states...i wont say which is the 50th because that will spread more people flocking to it's deviant land...but by posting in this topic you help America by making corn sex illegal in all 50 states! these two recent offenders were caught in the act UGH GOD MAKES ME SICK....with people like these it's not worth seeing the human race go another damn day.

SON OF A SKANK!! i need to print out my college essays and for SOME reason my usb will work on my computers but not my dads computer that can print. ARGH! i NEEEED TO PRINT AND I CANT PRINT FROM MY LAPTOP OR MY COMPUTER BECAUSE COMPUTERS HATE ME!! so THIS is my college essay read it or dont im going to delete this as soon as i print the damned thing anyways.

September 14, 2009

Frank Roth Foundation Painting Homework # 1

Art has always been interesting to me because I see it as a stress reliever. I was originally interested in fine arts but as I became more interested in sequential art I chose cartooning , I enjoy telling stories as much as I love drawing so cartooning has become a natural fit for me. The type of work that influences me isn't comics but impressionistic art, this style has developed my own abilities because it's about thinking and
seeing differently.

Impressionistic art was based on moving away from the normal realistic style and attempting to see art and the world in a different light , I want to do this as well, I want to think as far out the box as I can and allow myself and others to see more than what they are accustomed to. The artists in history who have inspired me the most are Salvador Dali, Piet Mondrian, and Ray Johnson., and Paul Cezanne. These particular artists I especially admire because they of their dedication to their art, eccentric personalities, and
Their ways of seeing things are almost riddle like.

I especially admire Ray Johnson, because of the things he said and the work he created he created a world of his own the as much as others would try to understand such as his art, and himself, it was almost an impossible task. My favorite media to use is ink, although it gets messy I enjoy the freeness I have with it and it's many benefits for cartooning, as well as the training my hand gets by learning to keep steady when inking which is beneficial when working with painting and other styles.

I have many ideas I want to express, but my ideas in painting and drawing are different from the ideas I want to express in comics. I like drama and tragedy, which is what my art occasionally centers around and my paintings often come out as what some may consider depressing I find mysterious, a melancholic picture touches me more than a lighthearted one because I find myself thinking much easier what a person could be
sad about, rather than happy, and so stories begin to form in my head, this leads me to create comics, I'd also like to create art based on history or a book, this is because as interesting as a book may be, sometimes people feel even closer to a story when they see a visual adaptation, I would like to someday make adaptations of classic novels, and even operas in hopes that youth can gain a knowledge on the classics.

I know that by being in this class I'll be able to use the skills I've learned to better myself in cartooning. By being in painting I'll have a more acute sense of detail and deeper understanding of perspective, above all else my patience will be tested and hopefully improved, oil painting is especially about patience so that the end results in perfection. I don't believe my dedication will wither because I have been waiting for a proper art instruction for years and never before have I felt challenged, I'm more grateful than anything to be in a school where I can gain as much as I'm willing to learn and I feel as if my will to learn is unlimited.