I definately believe in them, and you cant'really believe in them until you experience a situation that you cant explain logically. A part of me wants to see them, but another part of me knows that if i saw a ghost walking toward me in the night i'd be too terrified to react. Here's what happend to me once, and if you can come to any other conclusion than ghost please let me know:

I was laying in bed listening to music wide awake, i never fall assleep with my music on, then i feel my covers from my shoulder being slowly pulled over and i have my eyes closed thinking "ugh what is my mom doing?" because my mom changed me when i was younger and she was the only other person awake in the house.

So i turned around to ask what she was doing, and nothing was there. Now let me say that the cover was a comforter very heavy, it was winter and the windows were closed. When i saw nothing there i ran practically crying, banging on the bathroom dooor my mom was in screaming, she came out looked around the room, and i'm not sure if she believed me or not. i showed her how the cover was pulled, and she i dunno...didnt' do much, she looked under the bed and then left.

And also no it wasn't a animal because obviously i would have felt that kind of weight crawl to my shoulder and jerk my cover back. SO! explain why a heavy comforter would be pulled back with no other person in the room. If you can't think of any other answers that leaves one conclusion.

I love funny commercials! if people could make commercials funny more often id be buying a LOT more products!

From our cold dead hands will you take the alamo!! haven't you heard? the British are teaming up with the Mexicans to take back the Alamo more than a century later! so let's hold a tea party there so they will jump in to the waters as they try to salvage their precious tea but drown instead...yaaa.

lol actually the truth of what is really happening is just as stupid. People all over the country are holding "tea parties" to protest the new HELPFUL taxes that Obama has created out of his stimulus. As the lovely lady in the vid points out. Problem is that recession puts a lot of stress for people on Tax day. But these idiots think that dumping tea...will make a difference.

Dumping the tea is just a message they are sending "BOO taxes" ya we got that...but when it was done prior to the revolutionary war it was because people didn't like that they were getting taxed extra for tea without prior notice "taxation without representation" and you know what...people are having the same reactions now as they did then. Some are saying "Shut the fuck up you retards" others are saying "AWESOME!" i just find this all a hilarious bumfuck to history, and a war really will be started if the British find out what we've been doing to their tea....dear god even worse...THE CHINESE! OMG THE CHINESE WILL ATTACK THE ALAMO! NOOOO!

I'm Italian Haitian. I don't know much about my Italian side because none of them talk to eachother, i saw my aunt a few months ago. I don't have much a connection with her. It sucks...i really want to know about my background, but there's not much to know. My dad just keeps telling me there's nothing that's needed to know. But i feel like i missed so much...i just found out my aunt has a son i never met...i only met her daughter...sometimes i feel really excluded but i don't want to press my dad for info...he's totally disinterested.

My Haitian side is opposite...i don't know ALL of my family because my mom has 6 first cousins...who have kids...and i have first cousins.My aunts..were all married before..but their husbands left or divorced. I don't know much about their marriages. I'm the youngest in the family and because all of this happend so long ago..they just figured there's no point in bringing it up. it's just really irritating to find out last that someone had a son or daughter that's a cousin i never knew.

I've never been to Italy. I have some family there, but i don't know them and i never met them. I'm annoyed. But i might be going in a few months. Haiti i've seen and been to so often that i'm totally bored by it. Its a third world and i go insane with the lack of electricity and mosquitos. The only thing that makes me happy is hearing the music, i'm not a HUGE fan of it. But when i hear it, it makes me nostalgic, and if you get a few beers in me i will definately dance at the club. I don't want to go back though...other than a few good things i really don't want to go back. But if i get married i'd want my husband to enjoy it at least.

I know why people lie...but why do they make HUGE LIES!?! i can't understand...i've never fabricated a story that was so outrageous that i had to keep straight what i say. What irritates me more is that people tell me the CRAZIEST shit and for some reason i stupidly believe them...or at least not call them out on their BS!

A boy told me he was having a Super Sweet 16 party and MTV would be there with Rhianna singing...and he would have a white suit and cane....despite the fact his clothes are....not that fancy for someone with "a lot" of money.

A black girl told me she was a japanese ninja assassin. I actually believe this girl was half japanese...but i DEFINATELY was not dumb enough to believe the ninja assassin shit...and that she got SHOT pfft..yaa.

A guy told a friend he had sex with me then he told me he was being sarcastic even though the guy asked him twice if he was serious about doing it with me and the guy knew his friend believed him. I DEFINATELY DID NOT BELIEVE THIS LIAR! but you guys know this story...

A girl told me she wasn't bi "anymore"....but she hugged me in a pool...NO that's NOT hot...it's FUCKING WEIIIRD! anyway i dunno if that was a lie but it was still freaky.

A friend told me she didn't have a lot of money but she's had a PSP 2 cellphones and 3 different MP3s in the last 3 years. That's a load of shit for someone who only has one working parent!

I know this sounds cold...but i'm getting damn SICK of everyone...maybe it's having to do with being close to the end of highschool...do you ever think that when humans get close to the end of ANYTHING they feel relieved but irritated as well...like grumpy old people closening to the end of their lives....feel like "TO HELL WITH EVERYONE!"

because that's how i feel EVERYDAY! i think the whole world is insane and the people who have come close to understanding who i am don't really get me at all...in fact I don't get me...but i'd rather spend a day alone than with any of the aggravating people at my school or the psychos i've met through the years.

It was amazing....i was SOOO good too. I always have fantasys of skating but honestly...i'm just so clumsy...sometimes i think i'd do a good job but i'm way too afraid that i'll fall. It'd be a waste of money to even bother with it. Shit there are tons of things i wish i could do sing, play the guitar or the drums. I kinda wish i was a musician instead of a artist.

Girl musicians get all the sexy man cock :D oh well i guess the life of a cartoonist isn't so bad either. I'm happy that i at least have a talent and i can do SOMETHING with my hands. That's more than i can say for those damn tanning whores. I wish could live near all the Ng users im friends with. After meeting Levelingup i realized how much im truly bored by my friends and how much more interesting NG users are.

Ok so it's probably no suprise that people make fun of me. I mean...i go to a school where everyones in to rap and say things like "he felt very gratitude toward her" oh yes that's a direct quote. So it probably comes as no suprise that someone who likes rock, loves to learn about ancient civilizations, and *dramatic pause* READS BIG BOOKS AND UNDERSTANDS THEM!, doesn't exactly become the most popular person ever!

I'm not harshly made fun of people usually leave me alone...i think in the past 4 years i've been made fun of at least...5 times totaled...at least i'm aware of. I dont have enemys unless i make them purposely...i got made fun of by people who i don't even know...which seriously hurt me but also PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF.

But it doesn't bother me now when i get laughed at behind my back...like i said something in class today and some nasty girls whispered something and someone said "that was mean" of course they were talking about me...it's always easy to know when you are made fun of....it's just...i felt good because they are DUUUUMB...they can't write,can't read, i doubt they have high grades since they skip a lot, and they probably have shit SAT scores too, and if all of that isn't enough to fuck them up it's their shitty shitty attitudes and social skills.

I feel SOOO much better than them because i already got accepted to a great college, while they are going to a SHIT COMMUNITY COLLEGE AHAHAHAHAHHAHA ya...i mean...i won't lie...i am hurt...but i make myself feel better at how horrible their lives will be when i'm going to be in an incredible college with a sure vision of who i want to be...and because i'm already a hardworker and used to large amounts of work...college won't be as tough on me as it will be on them.

AND THATS WHY TODAY I AM A SUPERIOR ASSHOLE LOVING EVERY MINUTE OF IT! WHEEHOO!

Omg i want a badass gun i want a LAZOR gun. I'm not really a gun person but mmmmmmi love things that go PEW PEW PEW! sigh...i refuse to accept this is the future until i see some pewpewing with my guns and the really cool holographic videogames....yaaaaaaaa!

SUBJECT CHANGE!!SWISHWOOH

What are you all doing for Valentines?

Guys if you have a gf don't be a douche and only get her candy! oh you youngins don't know nuthin bout no romancin. As for me...sigh...i'll be eating the chocolates my dad gives me...alone....HOORAY! because if i had a boyfriend he'd eat them all > :( the fat bitch! I got a secret admirer and got a candy gram a few months ago...i think i know who it is and i don't like the guy i just REALLY want more candy *moves away from thrown rocks* i'm sorry...but candy turns me in to something...EVIL! so in class when i was near him i asked a girl who was supposed to be handing out these secret thingies when she was going to do it basically i was saying....
*hint hint "GIVEMECANDYANDI'LLHAVESEXYTIMEWITHJOO !"

At least i wanted him to think that. I just want candy. And not his CAAAANDY...just Candy....call me a awful person but how can i feel wrong when i have chocolate if it's supposed to make you feel good? RIDDLE ME THAT BITCH!

and that is what's called suppressing your feelings rofl!

OHEMGEEEE DO JOO LIKE MY PURPLE HAAAIIR TELL MEIMPRETTY *sob*

heehee i really love purple...and i took my graduation pics with my hair like that. My grandkids are gonna see it and go "GRANNY YOU A COOL MOFO!" and i'll be like "AHDUUUH..NOW RUBMYBUNIONS!"

I your dear Sawke is going to be studying at SVA in NYC one of the most top schools to go to for art. I'm doing cartooning!

SQUEEEE!

Hot art guys i'm on my way!

Oh god i'm so happy SVA is my first choice school and those kids produce such unbelievable work! i was so scared i wouldn't get in which is usually a good sign for me because when i have a deep feeling that i did horrible on something it always ends up good!

i can rest a little now i've been BUSTING MY ASS FOR HIGH GRADES LIKE YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE! ask Levelingup when he saw me during a very hw packed time he was like "wtf...sleep!" lol i was just totally exhausted. But my grades are worth it I got:

Music-90
Math-85
English-85
History-85
World Literature-90

YAHAHAHA! I KICK ASS! and those are just my averages for each at the end of three terms! smart=sexy you know it! lol i really tried hard for those grades and bugged the hell out of my teachers for extra credit. I don't think i have EVER been more happy to be me in my life! how sad is that? Here's some art!

So i'm starting my cartooning class at a college again which is GREAT because this time i'm working on a hardcore comic...ok hardcore isn't the word for it...i guess very detailed would suffice lol...anyway it's going to kick ass. It's called I, Claudius which is based on my favorite book of all time.

It's has to do with the life of Emperor Claudius who was the uncle of Caligula, and father in law to Nero. Claudius was considered a complete idiot because he stammered and was weak, but he hid his true intelligence that was he couldn't be considered a worthy target for assassination because at the time the Emperors weren't ruling like a Republic but more like a Royal family, and each Emperor after another generated hate because of their tyranical ways, minus Agustus who died at the hands of his wife so her son Tiberius could gain the throne and minus Claudius who also died at the hands of his wife for the same reason.

Anyway the art class is really great and as you can see i'm a bit of a nerd over Roman Emperors...TEEHEE.. XD...but thing is there is only me and one other girl in the class...the rest are boys...who aren't hot :(....i know i'm sad too. I don't know their names but they are...

Goth Boy-Who's getting on my fucking nerves already we almost started arguing on the FIRST DAY! argh. I think he was staring at my boobs too? i mean...my shirt had words on it...and i saw him look at it twice...isn't once enough to read a shirt?

Black Boy- Who's nice...i guess...i dunno..i have a weird irritation about him but i guess i need to warm up to him

Sexy Boy- One guy is actually hot....but i doubt he'd be in to me...i already got one guy this year...two would just be CWAZY XD

Weird Boy- I guess he's weird because hes quiet? i dunno...he's not hot and he kinda fads in to the background...so i just ignore him..oh well.

Chubby Guy- He was nice....i learned his name...but i won't say it because i like these nicknames lol. Uhm...i guess the only weird thing was he stared a bit much.

The Girl- ....ok....