mmmmm my feet are tingly and numb right now...and AH DUN CARE!!

As i think back to the most stressful years of my life...and believe me i've had some strange ones in my short life span...i'm realizing i was more insane than i ever realized...and that insanity could probably get reached again whenever i start to feel pressured.

The funny thing is...that when i did the crazy shit i did i had no idea it was crazy. It's kinda like...when you're younger you don't understand why anyone would want to be with the opposite sex because they're "icky" but when you get older it just makes sense you're like "OH THATS WHY!!" that's what happend with me...i just realized i was and maybe still am a little insane...and i've just been supressing the insanity.

When i was thirteen this guy got in to an argument with me, i don't even remember what it was about, at one point i just screamed at him like a monkey just a loud "AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!" and everyone in the class was like "WHAT THE FUCK!" the teacher asked if i was ok and i didn't realize what i did was completely retarded...i thought it was funny as well as totally normal. Now 5 years later it's just occured to me why the hell everyone was looking at me like i was going to take off my clothes and scratch myself! but i'm an artist so it's probably a wise career move to be insane lol.

In highschool i was considered a weird kid who dressed like a goth lol. When i went to college a girl said i didnt look like a cartoonist becuase i was dressed to fashionably!!!! holy shit!! i don't even make the weirdness level! i dont know if i should be upset because yet again i look out of place or should i be happy that im not the weirdest looking thing in the room anymore!!

HOT ACTION CORN MMMM YEH!!

IF YOU DONT LIKE GAY CORN SEX YOU CAN JUST LEAVE THESE GORGEOUS MEN DESERVE EACHOTHER!!

Whats so geeky about you? and how deep in to your interests are you?

I love comic books i'm not in to superhero comics though, more like normal story ones, i'm also a GIANT anime fan, i've seen more than 20 of them. I also have a few mangas but i dont like to waste money so i dont buy them often.

Im a crazy movie freak, i love movies, but action just doesn't interest me that much, i love old 30s movies and comedys. I dont collect them but believe me i've seen A LOT of them.

I know a lot about science and art, i'm really in to things about blackholes and theorys about the universe. And i know a lot about art history, both excite and interest me. I desperately want a tshirt that shows the milky way and a arrow pointing to our solar system showing "you are here" damn i want it but it's hard to find.

I've been called Indian, Pakistani, Puertorican, Dominician, it gets annoying. Whats worse is when people guess what type of PERSON i am, some call me a bitch, others call me stupid, smart, nice, funny, serious. Jeeze i dont think i know who i am anymore. But at least no one else does for sure.

YYYYYEEEH PIZZA BAGEL FRIGGIN DELEEESHUS!! IMA GIT SOME NOM NOM NOM!!!

Jeeze...i didn't think anyone could go crazy to the point of killing others just because they don't have a gf. I get a little down now and again, but it's not as if i'd be a GOOD gf anyways. I'd probably tell him to fuck off and stop calling me. I hate when people call me unless it's to go out somewhere. Seriously though...why do people get sooo desperate for affection. What is it in us that make us feel the need to have someone make us feel worthy? and are the people who don't want a relationship with anyone arrogant...because they feel they are better off alone? or are they afraid? both? what's your thought?

We should all know about eachother because none of us have anything better to do. I like:

To walk
Watch Movies,Tv,and Anime
read books, mostly fantasy and psychology
History
Forensic Science
Earth Science
Astronomy
Drawing
Painting
Comics
and trying but failing horribly at video games lol.

Sometimes i get really upset when guys show preference over my friend than me. But i know that her personality is really horrible, she's manipulative and sarcastic, and she says dumb things like "is this chinese...or haitian?" when i we ate at a haitian restaurant.

She's haitian and she had a haitian menu and haitian music was playing. I dont mean to be arrogant but sometimes it's better that we all remind ourselves when we see a beautiful person walking down the street that beauty is only skin deep. And that looks can always be matched with a personality. A kind heart, smile, laugh, sense of humor, beats a model. Of course im not saying that all beautiful people are assholes. But so often in society we are swayed by beauty that we cloud our judgement.

Now you may be saying "you're a liar...you probably fall for looks" thats right my breath stops when i see a perfect face and eyes. But more often than not my interest in that person vanishes because of their self absorbed attitude, or their overconfidence. I was raised to look beyond the face. And im greatful for that...because now when i see a hot guy i know is a dick i feel total disgust, and not the slightest bit attraction.