I must have an avoidant personality not because of my dad but because i was born that way. When i was with my mom i was always opens and laughing when i was little, and i barely spent time with my dad i also wasn't interested in the things kid my age liked, and what little girls SHOULD like. Now i'm older and i'm constantly hanging out with my dad and i'm completely disinterested in hanging out with people my own age, i have no interest in anything they have to say.Then again..my parents didnt have time for me when i was little, there werent many kids on my block to play with, and i was often left alone to watch tv.

So ya...i guess being alone a lot can cause serious shyness. No...i wouldnt say im TOO shy..i can speak clearly and keep up a conversation if i wanted to, i just hate it. Sometimes though i don't initiate conversations out of shyness, and that causes me to be alone a lot. But i've learned to adjust. I just don't want it to be like this forever.

I would like to have at least 5 close friends by age 30. Sigh...not working out too well. But i don't want them to be just ANYONE, i want them to be people i actually give a damn about. My family thinks i'm a freak because i don't like dancing, clubs, crowds, pretty much social situations. I'm not interested in pleasing anyone, and i think that's why they can't stand me at times,because i really am so secure that i can handle being alone, sure it might suck from time to time, but i get over it, unlike those social addicts.