Every year it is a tradition for my mom to say "now it's time for the youngest to say a prayer" she looks at me and demands for me to say a prayer and everytime i say no. The first time i said it was because i was shy...i was about 3...and i also couldn't remember the prayer i learned in church that my mom wanted me to say so i refused to say anything and insisted my older cousin could much better give a prayer...after that i always passed the job on to him.

My cousins not here for thanksgiving anymore..he moved. Now i say no because i'm not sure if there's a god or not...that and because im shy still i can't think on the spot. I don't think it's right for someone who isn't sure if there is a god or not to be praying, i can't explain properly why it didn't feel right...it just didn't. So my mom threatened "we won't eat until you say something" this year she was especially insistent...i shrugged and looked at my starving dad and said that was HIS problem...i'm never that hungry during thanksgiving for some reason...i guess nothing on the table really appetizes me.

It's not like i'm spoiled enough not to give thanks. I'm thankful all the time...sometimes i look around and think "i really don't deserve this...i'm so lucky" it bothers me that people are only expressing their thanks once a year and force it as well just to get to the food. Thanksgiving means nothing to me...i especially don't see it as a relgious holiday so WHY my mom puts pressure on me to pray every year i'll never know...i remember once expressing clear to my mom my views on religion...i guess she wasn't listening. If she was she wouldn't force me to pray.

In the end my dad gave in and said the prayer lol. It was funny because he was like "let us bless this food" then my mom cut him off "No GOD blesses the food" "do you want me to say the prayer or NOT?"

and well it continued on from there lol. It was an ok thanksgiving it passed in a daze...like i said i don't care...and every year it matters less.

NOTE: my dads not relgious...he's like me...agnostic...he just wanted food...and has no morals when it comes to saying prayers even if he doesn't mean them.