My grandma has a few hours left.

Shit...my grandmas dying...she's 92...she's someone i expected to live forever...i dunno...i can't imagine her being gone. I mean...i'm not close to her...because we can't speak the same language so if i ever did speak to her when i was little...and i vaguely remember doing so...i probably just babbled without realizing that she couldn't speak english.

Still she's family...and when i go to her country to visit her...it's like...she's the most important part...the house she runs there holds everything together...i always remember hearing her voice above all others. It'll be very empty without her...in fact i dont know how the house CAN run without her.

So she has a tumor on her colon...then she just had a stroke...now pus got in to her blood...so she has barely any hours left. Oh my god. I'm actually really glad i recorded her voice last time i was with her...which was hard because she was so quiet and croaky...I'm glad i got to see her once more ^^. It's going to be an explosion from my mom when she does go...ay duck for cover everyone.

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ngfan14 2008-06-04 20:23:51

My grandma died.....2 days ago. My birthday is today. I'm going to celebrate my birthday this weekend. Which is her funeral. My life sucks. :(
I feel sorry for you.

Sawke 2008-06-04 20:23:51

likewise. Did she die old? i'm at least glad my grandma lived a full life.

IrishChrisman 2008-06-04 20:23:56

Dam thats terrible.....what language does your Grandma sleep?

Sawke 2008-06-04 20:23:56

she speaks creole it's like a knock off of french. It's kinda funny...because when we say bye i say "au revoir" and she says "bye" i don't know....i think she knows...or knew...only a few words.It's morning now i don't know if she's still ok.

igott 2008-06-04 20:44:42

im sorry for your loss. truly i am

Atgod88 2008-06-04 20:50:59

P.S. That sucks :(

dragoop 2008-06-04 21:47:11

i know what its like to lose someone. i lost my dad when i was a toddler. good luck.

Sawke 2008-06-04 21:47:11

a Dads even worse. My dads the closest person i have in my family when i think of it...it'd be impossible to see life without him.

MeLucky 2008-06-05 07:04:09

:'(

Foric 2008-06-05 18:18:53

how sad,i greif for u

snapper5 2008-06-06 17:44:52

shit, sorry to hear iit

don't beat yourself up over it okay?

Sawke 2008-06-06 17:44:52

^^ thx.

Crue 2008-06-06 19:50:15

Both of mine are gone now. I kept expecting a card for my graduation from the latest, I kept forgetting she was gone. When you lose family there is definitely an empty space in your life. After her funeral I went through my photo albums and looked at all the pictures. I know I was lucky to have her, and we all go at some time, but its really weird when suddenly all the things that have been going on for years stop. Still, you have to get over it and keep going, and life will still be good even though the first week-few months are depressing. I'm sorry to hear about it, and I'm here for you Lori.

Sawke 2008-06-06 19:50:15

Thanks a lot ^^ but i don't think i'll be depressed about it. I wasn't that close to her. But still she's someone i've known all my life. It's kinda like having something in your house that even though you don't really pay much attention to it when it's gone it still makes you upset that it is. Sorry if that was too harsh, but that's basically my relationship with her. We never spoke, but still we're family.

man-whore 2008-06-07 17:28:24

i need your cunt <3

Sawke 2008-06-07 17:28:24

Hence the name

Emi 2008-06-07 23:34:19

So sorry to hear. My grandfather died when I was only 11, and it took me a few days to realize that he was really gone. I really miss how he used to drive me to school every morning, and how he was always nice to me since I am the youngest one in my family. I really do miss him.

Also! I'm terribly sorry that I'm not talking to you on MSN. Now I'm just getting lazy in starting conversations. I actually wait for people to talk to me first =S
I'll talk to you next time I see you.

Sawke 2008-06-07 23:34:19

Lol it's no problem no rush talk to me online when you're ready. Sorry about your grandad. I'm the youngest too It sucks to have only one person who recognizes your existence only to have them leave.

Smidly 2008-06-08 09:06:39

Yay lara!