Age/Gender: 17, Female
Location: America
Job: ??? O.o
I feel no pride for my race, gender, or country. All are just random occurences produced by chance. I feel pride for myself because what i do is my decision and not the result of genes, or society.
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But i wish it were possible. For some reason i attract people with serious issues. And i'm the last person who they should be talking to them because i'm admittedly self absorbed and i'm never interested in anyones problems unless it's so strange i only want to ask questions to satisfy my own curiousity.
I have known 5 people in my life with bi polar disorders, 3 with severe depression and cutting problems. And only one said my presence in ther lives made a difference despite the fact i did nothing but be myself. But for the rest being myself isn't enough, for some reason they thought i'm the person who will listen, ask questions be a comfort, but i'm not. I'm chastisizing, and i won't say what's right to make a person feel better if i think it's stupid.
One kid i know cut himself a LOT and was self destructive, sure for a few weeks i listened...but he just kept going ON and ON about his problems everyday. It got to a point where i stopped caring and yelled at him about something obnoxious he did when he wanted someone to take his side.
ya, call me cruel...but i don't take sides to make people "feel better" if i believe someone is being a ass i don't care if their parents are divorced and they are schizo, i'll tell someone they are an ass if i think they are a ass. If they don't like that...well...i'm not the one who said i'm a warm, nurturer, it's their fault for assuming that. i know i SHOULD help these people, but i'm not a professional so it's not technically my obligation. Get a fucking therapist.
1 comment | Log in to comment! | Share this!^^ THIS IS TOMMY SUNSHINE! i always kid that my friend is such an optimist and nice guy that he probably hugs puppies so i made this for the sunniest guy i know.

When i become a parent here's what i'll never do that my parents have done to me.
Son/Daughter i promise to never...
Wake you up screaming about anything unless im dying or about to.
make you feel stupid for laughing out loud
force you to feel guilty about your style
not listen
help you when you feel you need it
ignore when youre feeling depressed or tired and arent in the mood to talk
call you a brat or something that makes you feel less than who you are
giving you everything you want then calling you a brat
beat you (my dad did this once...i'm not being abused regularly)
calling you fat or making you feel bad when you're eating
comparing you to siblings or relatives or anyone else
calling your dreams stupid or insulting them
making comment on your lack of boyfriend or not having a lot of friends
yeh my life isn't as bad as compared to some...shit my cousins have it waaay worse. But...still everyone has their own personal hell, you have no idea what living with my family is like. It's torture but it's subtle, your family makes you feel great for awhile, then they treat you like shit, then back to good, it's on and off, but i always feel like they love me...but not like me...for me, i hope that makes sense.
1 comment | Log in to comment! | Share this!Does your family like to attack you on just about EVERYTHING? my sister and my mom have intense feelings of self loathing so everything they hate about themselves they have to attack me on. My mom hates her hair, so when i want to straighten it she goes "you're ashamed to be black" nooo...i'm ashamed to have thick curly fuckin hair. She's a hypocrite she straightens her hair!!! sometimes i think she's jealous because she hair is so short and mine is thick curls courtesy of my italian side.
Both my mom and sister tell me i weigh too much and snap at me when i'm enjoying some ice cream. They both eat WAAAY less healthier than i do. Fact of the matter is i've managed to stay the SAME weight for the past three years, the only reason i may have a little extra fat is because i don't work out. But i never drink soda, except diet coke, or anything that has over 200 calories and can't fill me up for at least 4 hours.
My sister eats UNBELIEVABLE amounts of portions which is why she gains weight, she snacks so much she has about 3 meals and 2 little ones in a DAY. My mom is the same, she doesn't watch the calories and she doesn't watch the portion sizes. So when i eat ice cream they have no right to tell me "AH YOU PIG!" when in fact i only ate two small but filling meals in the day so by the time i eat the ice cream it would barely have an effect on my weight. I called my sister out on her hypocrisy and she said "it's too late for me but you can still lose weight" WTF SHES NOT 50! SHES ONLY 28!! agh i hate women.....such bitches with eachother.
1 comment | Log in to comment! | Share this!On my moms side of the family everyones all optimistic, and "loving" and will put themselves through great pain to help out someone else. Of course they don't tell the truth when it could lead to someone making a crude decision, they don't think ahead and make precautions, they are also careless about budgeting. My moms side thinks im too much like my dad, cynical, irritable, and snappish.
My dad and i think we're totally perfect people, we may not giggle and laugh and act all sociable, but we keep our money well safe and budgeted, and we don't let people take advantage of us. I think i am a bit mean..ya..maybe a bit more than my dad.
My first reaction when i saw my sister fall down while playing was to crack up laughing, while my moms side of the familys reaction was to "gasp" and see if she was ok.
I dunno...i guess on some level i knew she wouldnt get hurt so i thought it was ok to laugh, i know its mean, and i hate when people laugh at me, but hell it's my nature. I wouldnt laugh if she fell downstairs of course. I guess i can't change my nature and they can't theirs.
I just hate being told who i am is wrong. So i'm a little mean and too honest? they're a little fake with their over kindness...actually not a little a LOT even to eachother, and they're not honest enough. Everything has a consequence. We just have to learn to live with eachother, of course they dont want to put up with me so i stay away ^^
1 comment | Log in to comment! | Share this!Women have a lot of trouble taking things as they are. I'm proud to say i was mostly raised by males so i can take the heat. But above all else it's not about male/female it's about being polite. Guys don't like to be told insensitive things so women need to watch their mouths as much as guys do.
Weight
We all know most girls get VERY touchy on their weight, i'm the same, i don't mind being told "hey you're gaining a little weight" from my dad or bf. I'll just be all "sigh yeh i know" honestly i fucking it hate it when guys try to go "oh..you're eating more ice cream..you think THAT'S going to make you lose weight" that seriously makes me snap.
I don't see why guys should have ANY reason to be obnoxious to girls about their weight, how would you like it if i came to the gym while you were working out and said "oh...that's not many muscles you have there can't them bigger? hm..."
Outfit
Never say her clothes look cheap, guys you don't like someone telling you your clothes look like you got them on discount if you are TRYING to look nice. Personally i LOVE cheap clothes, 12$ shirts FTW! but i like them because people think they cost WAY more.
I don't want someone to say "nice shirt looks like you didn't even try to spend a lot of money" that's totally obnoxious. But if someone says i have a nice outfit even though it costs 10 dollars in total i'll go "THANKS BUT YOU KNOW I GOT ALL THIS FOR UNDER 20$!!!!" i'm proud of my bargain prices lol.
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